This weekend i was pretty stressed about a looming art history test for most of it. Yesterday i spent nearly every waking hour at the library, which helped with the stress a bit, but also made me very aware of how little i know about the Baroque, Rococo, Romanticism, and The Enlightenment, which is what the exam is about, along with 40+ images.
The hardest part of the test, for me, is that the professor also shows us a piece we’ve never seen, and we have to guess where and when, and give evidence. I’ve never been right, so far, but i want to be right. i study like a maniac. thus, yesterday. i love leaving a test and feeling like i DID it.
when i was finally ready to retire from studying, around 130, i got in bed, snuggled up under the quilt, pushed my cold toes up against knox’s warm legs, and…couldn’t sleep. for hours. there was too much thinking to do.
i know it was a combination of the caffeine and the over-studying (and maybe the universe punishing me for going to starbucks), but it reminded me so much of when i was a little girl. i used to worry, a lot. even as a teenager i would bolt through dark rooms and refuse to look out the window at night. when i would get into bed and try to sleep, i couldn’t. sometimes i would get up and write lists of things i needed to think about, and then lay down and try to sleep again.
getting married changed that. knox makes me feel safe, and he was around for me to talk to at night. Going to sleep is a lot easier with the day’s events off my mind.
But last night K was sleeping, and for the aforementioned reasons, i was not.
Anyway, that’s just another reason i love him.
-Here’s another: how many mothers-of-two get to go to college full time and follow their dreams to an occupation that isn’t necessarily extremely profitable? One. Me.
-(Another, related:) I haven’t cooked a meal since August. (i do make breakfasts for shiloh, and lunches. that is all.)
-He worked all week, and then spent saturday doing the same thing he does at work for free, so a refugee can have a livable, affordable apartment. and had a good time while doing it.
-As Amanda says, who needs tv with Knox around?