i’m having one of those moments where i’m absolutely positive i’m in the right place, doing the right thing.  What i mean to say is that work keeps me pretty busy, and sometimes there aren’t really indicators that there is hope or transformation, for anyone.

but i just got this email from a dear friend who is growing beyond her pain, allowing forgiveness to sneak in and salve her wounds, slowly, slowly.  And no one has forced this upon her, no one has even suggested it, kindness and patience incubating her cold egg.  it’s so beautiful to see this happen, to see someone moving towards the light.

i can’t help but compare my own experiences with hers, can’t help but remember the times people (pastors) have sat me down to try and force me to forgive someone, as if God couldn’t handle me waiting another day, to say it when i actually meant it. 
(Fuck that, by the way.)  and now, i’m living in forgiveness.  i got there, despite those pot-bellied men who tried to force it on me.  i’m not saying that i’ve forgiven everyone who has ever hurt me, but i’m in process for sure.

and. i LOVE the life i’m living!  i love Knox.  i love the shadows and lights, the people, the clouds and big skies of summer.  i love
Jaden’s clothing choices
sharing a sketchbook and special moments with three friends
Barry and Maria’s farm
watching Knox dance with a room full of Iraqi men (and they love him, they LOVE him)
my neck and shoulders and their new tan
being absolutely CAPABLE of tryin new things, like how i made yogurt for the first time last week
zucchini, i LOVE zucchini
Anna Laura
and everyone else, really. 

Did you know that friday morning i got 2 texts, one from Natalie and one from Jordan, both sent at 9:14?   and both essentially saying that they miss me.  I miss you too!